Sunday, 19 July 2009

I hate feeling like this!

I’m not having a good day today.. I’m not a moaner or a whinger but today I feel crap!

Yesterday afternoon I decided to leave my shiny new car at home and have a nice long walk to the retail park to take back the car seat cover I’d bought as it was far too small.

I got caught in the rain but that didn’t bother me as my skin doesn’t leak!!
After doing what I had to and having a nosey in PC World for some dinky ear phones for my laptop, I set off home.

As I got about half way home I felt weird!! The fainty weird I often get. I stopped off at Asda and sat for a little bit until I felt I wasn’t going to make a fool of myself and land in a heap on the pavement!! Boy was I glad to finally reach home.

My head was pounding so I took a couple of painkillers and laid on the sofa. I know this feeling well, its one I’ve had ever since finishing chemo 2 years ago. I’m so light headed and nauseous, I daren’t stand up as I’m scared to faint, I have to hold onto walls and furniture just in case. Why has it decided to happen this weekend when I’m home alone?

My Oncologist has told me that chemotherapy can have long lasting side effects as it can attack the nerve endings and different people get different side effects, mine been this fainting thing grrrrrrrr. It happens a lot to be honest but yesterdays event was scary.

I went to bed and slept like a log but woke up feeling just as bad. I have been as sick as a dog and also have the runs!! I tell ya, I don’t do things by halves. I am now laid on the sofa tapping away on my laptop with Molly & Bertie by my side, bless them they’ve followed me from room to room as they know I’m having a bad time. This afternoon I’m going to watch my favourite film of all time “Fried Green Tomatoes at The Whistle Stop Café”.


  1. Tracy, hope you're feeling grand soon. Molly and Bertie are sweet to sense you're not feeling well. Give them both a pet from me. And here's a hug for you! God bless you.

  2. oh poor you! sounds hideous - call the docs tomorrow though, better safe than sorry. Feeling faint is one thing - being sick etc is another. I get giddy attacks, but not like that!
    Hope you feel better soon

  3. Oh Tracey, I am so sorry to hear that you are not feeling well! I know what you mean - the treatments are brutal! Like you, I am suffering side effects months after completing treatment. In fact, I feel worse now than I did when I was in treatment, and that is such a difficult thing to explain to others. Everyone assumes that you should be back to your old self. Not so!

    Rest, relax, and I hope that you have someone close by that you can call if you need help. Sending healing thoughts your way!

  4. It's interesting to read about the long range effects of chemo. I've heard nothing of them. This week has not been a good one for me either, and now you've got me wondering. I'd better do some googling...

  5. Sorry you're not well ... take care and hope you will be better soon.